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Pete Davidson Spoke In Detail About His Mental Health And Said Being Viewed As A “Big Idiot” Who “Smokes Weed” Became “Humiliating”
Pete Davidson Spoke In Detail About His Mental Health And Said Being Viewed As A “Big Idiot” Who “Smokes Weed” Became “Humiliating”,“One night I turned on the TV and I just saw my dad on TV… It was weird because we didn’t know he was dead for, like, three weeks.”

Pete Davidson Spoke In Detail About His Mental Health And Said Being Viewed As A “Big Idiot” Who “Smokes Weed” Became “Humiliating”

In a rare in-depth interview, Pete Davidson opened up about his father’s death and how it impacted his long-term health.

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Thanks to shocking jokes like these, Pete, over the years, has become known for making light of his dad’s tragic death.

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However, in a new interview for Jon Bernthal’s Real Ones podcast, Pete opened up about life after leaving SNL and admitted that he’s now hoping to distance himself from the goofy public persona he forged for himself in the first chapter of his career.

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“That’s why I’m trying to like, act — be an actor in something and not just be what people think is me,” he said, admitting that being viewed as “big idiot with a dick that smokes weed” became “humiliating” over time.

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“That was my thing for a bit,” he said of playing up the goofy guy image, “but it doesn’t have to be my thing forever.”

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Interestingly, he tied this into his frustrations about being associated with 9/11 jokes, confessing that he feels the label isn’t completely justified.

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“It’s like the 9/11 thing,” he began. “People will be like, ‘Oh, he’s probably just talking about his dead dad all the time,’ and it’s like, Yo, I made two jokes about my dad in a span of like 15 years.”

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He went on to say that the idea he’d joke about it for sympathy is “bullshit.” “It makes me feel so small and shitty,” he said, before explaining the real reason he’s chosen to make light of his personal tragedy in the past.

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“I’m trying to share little jokes here and there about him because I like to keep that memory alive,” he said. “My dad was a great dude, like, why is that a fucking problem? I get defensive. It’s my family.”

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Speaking with Jon now, Pete talked more candidly than ever about his mental health and revealed that he’s currently in a really happy place — which he said can actually feel a bit confusing after having experienced so much trauma in his life.

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“It’s a weird thing for me to even grasp now, because I’ve lived in discomfort for so long, where that became comfortable. So, now I actually have people around me that love me and it’s weird,” he said. “It’s a whole new thing I never thought of. It’s weird being happy.”

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Pete admitted that this is something he’s discussed at length with his therapist, which they concluded stems back to PTSD from his childhood — specifically, the loss of his father.

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“My dad told me he was gonna pick me up from school on 9/11. I got picked up by my mom,” he began, before continuing to recount the events of the tragic day.

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“She didn’t tell me what was going on for like, three days. She kept telling me, ‘Dad’s at work,’ ‘Coming home,’ whatever. I had no idea,” he went on.

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“It was weird because we didn’t know he was dead for like, three weeks,” he added. “They were finding people, you know? They were pulling people out of shit, and there was just some sort of hope. Like, it was just up and down and nobody knew how to deal with it.”

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Reflecting on the aftermath of 9/11, Pete said he’s only gained more respect for his mother in the years that have passed.

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“You know, Dad says he’s coming to pick you up and he doesn’t. For life, I’m like, I don’t believe anyone, and I’m trying to learn how to believe people — and Hollywood isn’t exactly the greatest place to learn that skill,” he said.

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Following on, Pete confessed that the public eye is a difficult place for him to work on himself, but that he’s made a lot of progress with his growth as a person.

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“You actually have to trick your brain, because your brain after a while becomes used to trauma, it becomes used to being hurt,” he said, admitting that he finds the key to being stable is to “fact-check” himself in order to prevent falling into unhealthy thinking patterns.

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“It’s just growth,” he said. “I’ve been self-harming since I was a kid … And up until a year ago, I used to cut and I used to bang my head against walls, because if I couldn’t deal with something, I would bang my head against the wall hoping I’d pass out because I didn’t want to be in that situation.”

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“And over years, and years, and years, it becomes less, and less, and less, and you have to use these skills,” he said.

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Dial 988 in the US to reach the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline. The Trevor Project, which provides help and suicide-prevention resources for LGBTQ youth, is 1-866-488-7386. Find other international suicide helplines at Befrienders Worldwide (befrienders.org).

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